My only doubt was as to whether any dream could be more terrible than the unnatural, horrible net of gloom and mystery which seemed closing around me.
Later .-- I endorse the last words written, but this time there is no doubt in question.

I shall not fear to sleep in any place where he is not.

I have placed the crucifix over the head of my bed, I imagine that my rest is thus freer from dreams, and there it shall remain.
When he left me I went to my room.

After a little while, not hearing any sound, I came out and went up the stone stair to where I could look out towards the South.

There was some sense of freedom in the vast expanse, inaccessible though it was to me, as compared with the narrow darkness of the courtyard.