[Cabin Fever by B. M. Bower]@TWC D-Link bookCabin Fever CHAPTER TEN 2/22
It is like a sudden resurrection of all the loved, long-mourned dead that sleep so serenely in their tended plots.
Loved though they were and long mourned, think of the consternation if they all came trooping back to take their old places in life! The old places that have been filled, most of them, by others who are loved as dearly, who would be mourned if they were taken away. Psychologists will tell us all about the subconscious mind, the hidden loves and hates and longings which we believe are dead and long forgotten.
When one of those emotions suddenly comes alive and stands, terribly real and intrusive, between our souls and our everyday lives, the strongest and the best of us may stumble and grope blindly after content, or reparation, or forgetfulness, or whatever seems most likely to give relief. I am apologizing now for Bud, who had spent a good many months in pushing all thoughts of Marie out of his mind, all hunger for her out of his heart.
He had kept away from towns, from women, lest he be reminded too keenly of his matrimonial wreck.
He had stayed with Cash and had hunted gold, partly because Cash never seemed conscious of any need of a home or love or wife or children, and therefore never reminded Bud of the home and the wife and the love and the child he had lost out of his own life.
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