What if she found Bud--drunk, as Joe had described him?
Or, worse than that, what if she did not find him at all?
She tried not to cry, but it seemed as though she must cry or scream.

Fast as she wiped them away, other tears dropped over her eyelids upon her cheeks, and were given the absorbed attention of Lovin Child, who tried to catch each one with his finger.

To distract him, she turned him around face to the window.
"See all the--pitty cows," she urged, her lips trembling so much that they would scarcely form the words.

And when Lovin Child flattened a finger tip against the window and chuckled, and said "Ee?
Ee ?"--which was his way of saying see--Marie dropped her face down upon his fuzzy red "bunny" cap, hugged him close to her, and cried, from sheer, nervous reaction..