I was in a state of such utter lack of self-control that I don't know what I should have done had it not been for the unwitting assistance which somebody gave me by pronouncing the name of a grotesque person of whom I can never think without laughing.Adieu.You are right.

I tell myself that I will never write you again, and I go and do it anyway.
"'Your own--as I cannot be in reality without wounding us both.' "Then when I wrote a burning reply, this was brought by a maid on a dead run: "'Ah, if I were not afraid, afraid!--and you know you are just as much afraid as I am--how I should fly to you! No, you cannot hear the thousand conversations with which my soul fatigues yours....

Oh, in my miserable existence there are hours when madness seizes me.

Judge for yourself.

The whole night I spent appealing to you furiously.