That's why I've told you so much.

But of late I find it harder to tell what I know about Jack Belllounds.

I'm in a queer state of mind, Wilson dear.

And you'll wonder, and you'll be sorry to know I haven't seen much of Ben lately--that is, not to talk to.

It seems I can't _bear_ his faith in me, his hope, his love--when lately matters have driven me into torturing doubt.
"But lest you might misunderstand, I'm going to try to tell you something of what is on my mind, and I want you to read it to Ben.