He closed his eyes, saying, "No, no;" then opened them again to the beautiful light.

He stopped his ears, crying, "I will not hear;" then listened to the sweet music.

With all the force of his life's training, he railed against the doctrine; then in silence contemplated its glorious truths.

He drove the thought of it out of his mind; then welcomed it eagerly back.

Back and forth, in and out, in doubt and fear, in faith and hope his soul had suffered and wrought.
What was the outcome to be?
Evidently, the end was not yet; for had he not purposely taken this trip abroad, to get away from some of these things, and had he not run hard against that which he had hoped to escape.