Well, then, you were astonished--and repelled.

That I saw--I realized it indeed more and more.

I saw that I had perhaps done a fatal thing, and I spent much time brooding and thinking.

I felt an acute distress, such as I had never felt in my life before--so much so that I began even to avoid you, because I used to say to myself--"She will go away some day--perhaps soon--and I must accustom myself to it." And yet--' He lifted the hand that shaded his eyes, and gave her a long touching look.
'Yet I felt sometimes that you knew what was happening in me--and were sorry for me.

Then came the news of Desmond.