And you wanted to write! Why, you're just on the edge of beginning to get something in you to write about.

You wanted to create beauty, but how could you when you knew nothing about the nature of beauty?
You wanted to write about life when you knew nothing of the essential characteristics of life.

You wanted to write about the world and the scheme of existence when the world was a Chinese puzzle to you and all that you could have written would have been about what you did not know of the scheme of existence.

But cheer up, Martin, my boy.

You'll write yet.