Only I've found out now I can never live with her.

Her temper is fiendish.

It degrades her--and me.

But you saw! She has made my life a burden to me lately, because I wouldn't name a day for us to be married.
I wanted to see my father quietly first--without my mother knowing--and I have been thinking how to manage it--and funking it of course--I always do funk things.

But what she did just now has settled it--it has been blowing up for a long time.