'You think that if you were to accept that trifle from me now, I should presume upon it hereafter; but you are mistaken:--if you will only oblige me by taking it, believe me, I shall build no hopes upon it, and consider this no precedent for future favours:--and it is nonsense to talk about putting yourself under obligations to me when you must know that in such a case the obligation is entirely on my side,--the favour on yours.' 'Well, then, I'll take you at your word,' she answered, with a most angelic smile, returning the odious money to her purse--'but remember!' 'I will remember--what I have said;--but do not you punish my presumption by withdrawing your friendship entirely from me,--or expect me to atone for it by being more distant than before,' said I, extending my hand to take leave, for I was too much excited to remain.
'Well, then! let us be as we were,' replied she, frankly placing her hand in mine; and while I held it there, I had much difficulty to refrain from pressing it to my lips;--but that would be suicidal madness: I had been bold enough already, and this premature offering had well-nigh given the death-blow to my hopes.
It was with an agitated, burning heart and brain that I hurried homewards, regardless of that scorching noonday sun--forgetful of everything but her I had just left--regretting nothing but her impenetrability, and my own precipitancy and want of tact--fearing nothing but her hateful resolution, and my inability to overcome it--hoping nothing--but halt,--I will not bore you with my conflicting hopes and fears--my serious cogitations and resolves..