My heart clings to him more than ever; and my soul is sick of solitude.
April 16th .-- He is come and gone.

He would not stay above a fortnight.
The time passed quickly, but very, very happily, and it has done me good.
I must have a bad disposition, for my misfortunes have soured and embittered me exceedingly: I was beginning insensibly to cherish very unamiable feelings against my fellow-mortals, the male part of them especially; but it is a comfort to see there is at least one among them worthy to be trusted and esteemed; and doubtless there are more, though I have never known them, unless I except poor Lord Lowborough, and he was bad enough in his day.

But what would Frederick have been, if he had lived in the world, and mingled from his childhood with such men as these of my acquaintance?
and what will Arthur be, with all his natural sweetness of disposition, if I do not save him from that world and those companions?
I mentioned my fears to Frederick, and introduced the subject of my plan of rescue on the evening after his arrival, when I presented my little son to his uncle.
'He is like you, Frederick,' said I, 'in some of his moods: I sometimes think he resembles you more than his father; and I am glad of it.' 'You flatter me, Helen,' replied he, stroking the child's soft, wavy locks.
'No, you will think it no compliment when I tell you I would rather have him to resemble Benson than his father.' He slightly elevated his eyebrows, but said nothing.
'Do you know what sort of man Mr.Huntingdon is ?' said I.
'I think I have an idea.' 'Have you so clear an idea that you can hear, without surprise or disapproval, that I meditate escaping with that child to some secret asylum, where we can live in peace, and never see him again ?' 'Is it really so ?' 'If you have not,' continued I, 'I'll tell you something more about him'; and I gave a sketch of his general conduct, and a more particular account of his behaviour with regard to his child, and explained my apprehensions on the latter's account, and my determination to deliver him from his father's influence.
Frederick was exceedingly indignant against Mr.Huntingdon, and very much grieved for me; but still he looked upon my project as wild and impracticable.

He deemed my fears for Arthur disproportioned to the circumstances, and opposed so many objections to my plan, and devised so many milder methods for ameliorating my condition, that I was obliged to enter into further details to convince him that my husband was utterly incorrigible, and that nothing could persuade him to give up his son, whatever became of me, he being as fully determined the child should not leave him, as I was not to leave the child; and that, in fact, nothing would answer but this, unless I fled the country, as I had intended before.

To obviate that, he at length consented to have one wing of the old hall put into a habitable condition, as a place of refuge against a time of need; but hoped I would not take advantage of it unless circumstances should render it really necessary, which I was ready enough to promise: for though, for my own sake, such a hermitage appears like paradise itself, compared with my present situation, yet for my friends' sakes, for Milicent and Esther, my sisters in heart and affection, for the poor tenants of Grassdale, and, above all, for my aunt, I will stay if I possibly can.
July 29th .-- Mrs.Hargrave and her daughter are come back from London.
Esther is full of her first season in town; but she is still heart-whole and unengaged.