I try hard to put my trust in Him, but my faith is weak.

It ought by this time to have been strong.

I always want to see the way He is leading me--to understand something of what He is doing with me or teaching me, before I can accept His will, or get my heart to consent not to complain.

It makes me very unhappy.

I begin to fear that I have never known even the beginning of confidence, and that faith has been with me but a thing of the understanding and the lips." He bowed his head on his hands.