Anne is the only person that knows of it, and she has no judgment at all; indeed, she does me a great deal more harm than good, for I am in constant fear of her betraying me.

She does not know how to hold her tongue, as you must perceive, and I am sure I was in the greatest fright in the world t'other day, when Edward's name was mentioned by Sir John, lest she should out with it all.

You can't think how much I go through in my mind from it altogether.

I only wonder that I am alive after what I have suffered for Edward's sake these last four years.

Every thing in such suspense and uncertainty; and seeing him so seldom--we can hardly meet above twice a-year.