I know I thank God sincerely; I thank Him again and again and again.

Do you remember how, when I was a child, you used to be horrified because I prayed standing?
I often say little prayers standing now; I am always thanking Him for giving me you.

But all the time it is a bargain with Him.

So long as you are well I love Him, but if you were to die I would never pray again.

I have never said it in words until to-day, but He must know it, for it is behind all my prayers.