Why, I said, since I must sink in her opinion, should I not cherish this belief?
Why not personate an enemy, and pretend that celestial interference has frustrated my schemes?
I must fly, but let me leave wonder and fear behind me.

Elucidation of the mystery will always be practicable.

I shall do no injury, but merely talk of evil that was designed, but is now past.
"Thus I extenuated my conduct to myself, but I scarcely expect that this will be to you a sufficient explication of the scene that followed.
Those habits which I have imbibed, the rooted passion which possesses me for scattering around me amazement and fear, you enjoy no opportunities of knowing.

That a man should wantonly impute to himself the most flagitious designs, will hardly be credited, even though you reflect that my reputation was already, by my own folly, irretrievably ruined; and that it was always in my power to communicate the truth, and rectify the mistake.
"I left you to ponder on this scene.

My mind was full of rapid and incongruous ideas.