This manuscript, however, which contained the most secret transactions of my life, I was desirous of destroying.

For this end I must return to my house, and this I immediately determined to do.
I was not willing to expose myself to opposition from my friends, by mentioning my design; I therefore bespoke the use of Mr.Hallet's chaise, under pretence of enjoying an airing, as the day was remarkably bright.
This request was gladly complied with, and I directed the servant to conduct me to Mettingen.

I dismissed him at the gate, intending to use, in returning, a carriage belonging to my brother..