Hearing was the only avenue to information, which the circumstances allowed to be open.

I was couched within three feet of you.

Why should I approach nearer?
I could not contend with your betrayer.

What could be the purpose of a contest?
You stood in no need of a protector.

What could I do, but retire from the spot overwhelmed with confusion and dismay?
I sought my chamber, and endeavoured to regain my composure.