When should I ever tire of her! But that's different, that's quite different.' He was musing, not speaking to me; so I remained quiet.
'A dull old house,' he said, 'and a monotonous life; but I must have her near me.

I must keep her near me.

If the thought that I may die and leave my darling, or that my darling may die and leave me, comes like a spectre, to distress my happiest hours, and is only to be drowned in--' He did not supply the word; but pacing slowly to the place where he had sat, and mechanically going through the action of pouring wine from the empty decanter, set it down and paced back again.
'If it is miserable to bear, when she is here,' he said, 'what would it be, and she away?
No, no, no.

I cannot try that.' He leaned against the chimney-piece, brooding so long that I could not decide whether to run the risk of disturbing him by going, or to remain quietly where I was, until he should come out of his reverie.

At length he aroused himself, and looked about the room until his eyes encountered mine.
'Stay with us, Trotwood, eh ?' he said in his usual manner, and as if he were answering something I had just said.