I run, and finally find her.

Nights of torture follow, in which both of us, with exhausted nerves, appease each other, after the most cruel words and accusations.
"Yes, jealousy, causeless jealousy, is the condition of our debauched conjugal life.

And throughout my marriage never did I cease to feel it and to suffer from it.

There were two periods in which I suffered most intensely.

The first time was after the birth of our first child, when the doctors had forbidden my wife to nurse it.