His success, it was true, had been qualified by her quick escape, so that there grew up in him an absurd desire to put it to some better test.

Save in so far as some other poor chance might help him, such a test could be only to meet her afresh at church.

Left to himself he would have gone to church the very next afternoon, just for the curiosity of seeing if he should find her there.
But he wasn't left to himself, a fact he discovered quite at the last, after he had virtually made up his mind to go.

The influence that kept him away really revealed to him how little to himself his Dead _ever_ left him.

He went only for _them_--for nothing else in the world.
The force of this revulsion kept him away ten days: he hated to connect the place with anything but his offices or to give a glimpse of the curiosity that had been on the point of moving him.