But in his heart of hearts he loves me best in the whole world, and he wouldn't have been ashamed to let me see it at such a moment.

And I should have had a precious memory of him for ever.

You shake your head.

Don't you understand me?
I thought you seemed to understand," she said wistfully.
"Peter is a boy," said John, "and life is just opening for him.

It is a hard saying to _you_, but his thoughts are full of the world he is entering.