How different did She now appear to me! What before seemed gloom and sullenness, I now found to be disgust at her Associates, and compassion for my danger.

I looked up to her as to my only resource; Yet knowing her to be watched by her Husband with a suspicious eye, I could place but little reliance on the exertions of her good-will.
In spite of all my endeavours to conceal it, my agitation was but too visibly expressed upon my countenance.

I was pale, and both my words and actions were disordered and embarrassed.

The young Men observed this, and enquired the cause.

I attributed it to excess of fatigue, and the violent effect produced on me by the severity of the season.
Whether they believed me or not, I will not pretend to say: They at least ceased to embarrass me with their questions.