[Lord Kilgobbin by Charles Lever]@TWC D-Link bookLord Kilgobbin CHAPTER III 4/16
Indeed, so far as conscience goes, I have always felt it so, but one's conscience, like one's boots, gets so pliant from wear, that it ceases to give pain.
Still, on my honour, I never hip-hurraed to a toast that I did not feel: there goes broken boots to one of the boys, or, worse again, the cost of a cotton dress for one of the sisters.
Whenever I took a sherry-cobbler I thought of suicide after it. Self-indulgence and self-reproach got linked in my nature so inseparably, it was hopeless to summon one without the other, till at last I grew to believe it was very heroic in me to deny myself nothing, seeing how sorry I should be for it afterwards.
But come, old fellow, don't lose your evening; we'll have time enough to talk over these things--where are you going ?' 'To the Clancys'.' 'To be sure; what a fellow I am to forget it was Letty's birthday, and I was to have brought her a bouquet! Dick, be a good fellow and tell her some lie or other--that I was sick in bed, or away to see an aunt or a grandmother, and that I had a splendid bouquet for her, but wouldn't let it reach her through other hands than my own, but to-morrow--to-morrow she shall have it.' 'You know well enough you don't mean anything of the sort.' 'On my honour, I'll keep my promise.
I've an old silver watch yonder--I think it knows the way to the pawn-office by itself.
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