She knew that it was not well that a girl should run after her lover; but yet how was she to live without seeing him?
What other comfort had she?
and from whom else could she look for guidance?
She declared to herself at last that she, in her position, would not be stayed by ordinary feelings of maiden reserve.

She would tell him everything, even to the threat on which her aunt had so much depended, and would then ask him for his counsel.

She would describe to him, if words from her could describe them, all her difficulties, and would promise to be guided by him absolutely in everything.
"Everything," she would say to him, "I have given up for you.

I am yours entirely, body and soul.

Do with me as you will." If he should then tell her that he would not have her, that he did not want the sacrifice, she would go away from him--and drown herself.