I noticed that even from your letter in America." "You...

you know....

Oh, let us drop me altogether," Shatov broke off suddenly, "and if you can explain anything about yourself explain it....
Answer my question!" he repeated feverishly.
"With pleasure.

You ask how I could get into such a den?
After what I have told you, I'm bound to be frank with you to some extent on the subject.

You see, strictly speaking, I don't belong to the society at all, and I never have belonged to it, and I've much more right than you to leave them, because I never joined them.