To sow in her heart cravings for social position was obviously his strong desire, though in direct antagonism to a better feeling which had hitherto prevailed with him, and had, indeed, only succumbed that morning during the ramble.
She wished that she was not his worldly hope; the responsibility of such a position was too great.

She had made it for herself mainly by her appearance and attractive behavior to him since her return.

"If I had only come home in a shabby dress, and tried to speak roughly, this might not have happened," she thought.

She deplored less the fact than the sad possibilities that might lie hidden therein.
Her father then insisted upon her looking over his checkbook and reading the counterfoils.

This, also, she obediently did, and at last came to two or three which had been drawn to defray some of the late expenses of her clothes, board, and education.
"I, too, cost a good deal, like the horses and wagons and corn," she said, looking up sorrily.
"I didn't want you to look at those; I merely meant to give you an idea of my investment transactions.