I shall be shown to be a coward, and I shall do my best to put myself in the way of being killed.

I should not like to blow my brains out, but if the worst comes to the worst I will do that rather than go on living after I have again disgraced myself." "You look at it too seriously, Bathurst." "Not a bit of it, Doctor, and you know it." "But if the Sepoys rise, Bathurst, why should they harm their officers?
They may be discontented, they may have a grievance against the Government, they may refuse to obey orders and may disband; but why on earth should they attack men who have always been kind to them, whom they have followed in battle, and against whom they have not as much as a shadow of complaint ?" "I hope it may be so most sincerely," Bathurst said; "but one never can say.

I can hardly bring myself to believe that they will attack the officers, much less injure women and children.

Still, I have a most uneasy foreboding of evil." "You have heard nothing from the natives as to any coming trouble ?" "Nothing at all, Doctor, and I am convinced that nothing is known among them, or at any rate by the great bulk of them.

Only one person has ever said a word to me that could indicate a knowledge of coming trouble, and that was this juggler we saw tonight.