He craved diversion, amusement, excitement.

Something there was that he wanted with all his heart and soul; yet he was quite unable to say what it was.

Something was gone from him to-day that he had possessed yesterday, and he knew he would not regain it on the morrow, nor the next day, nor the day after that.

What was it?
He could not say.

For half an hour he imagined he was going to be sick.