You know the way he talks?
You do not talk so, yet you can sit and hear him without shuddering, and I cannot.

My soul is sick when he begins with it; I could smite him in the mouth.

And all that's nothing.

I was at the trial of this Jopp.
You were not there, but you must have heard him often; the man's notorious for it, for being--look at my position! he's my father and this is how I have to speak of him--notorious for being a brute and cruel and a coward.

Lord Glenalmond, I give you my word, when I came out of that Court, I longed to die--the shame of it was beyond my strength: but I--I--" he rose from his seat and began to pace the room in a disorder.
"Well, who am I?
A boy, who have never been tried, have never done anything except this twopenny impotent folly with my father.