And the fixed, wide-open eye shook in unison with the shaking of his head, and looked out in silence.
"But who was my father?
Perhaps it was the man who used to beat me with a rod, or may be--a devil, a goat or a cock....

How can Judas tell?
How can Judas tell with whom his mother shared her couch.

Judas had many fathers: to which of them do you refer ?" But at this they were all indignant, for they had a profound reverence for parents; and Matthew, who was very learned in the scriptures, said severely in the words of Solomon: "'Whoso slandereth his father and his mother, his lamp shall be extinguished in deep darkness.'" But John the son of Zebedee haughtily jerked out: "And what of us?
What evil have you to say of us, Judas Iscariot ?" But he waved his hands in simulated terror, whined, and bowed like a beggar, who has in vain asked an alms of a passer-by: "Ah! they are tempting poor Judas! They are laughing at him, they wish to take in the poor, trusting Judas!" And while one side of his face was crinkled up in buffooning grimaces, the other side wagged sternly and severely, and the never-closing eye looked out in a broad stare.
More and louder than any laughed Simon Peter at the jokes of Judas Iscariot.

But once it happened that he suddenly frowned, and became silent and sad, and hastily dragging Judas aside by the sleeve, he bent down, and asked in a hoarse whisper-- "But Jesus?
What do you think of Jesus?
Speak seriously, I entreat you." Judas cast on him a malign glance.
"And what do you think ?" Peter whispered with awe and gladness-- "I think that He is the son of the living God." "Then why do you ask?
What can Judas tell you, whose father was a goat ?" "But do you love Him?
You do not seem to love any one, Judas." And with the same strange malignity, Iscariot blurted out abruptly and sharply: "I do." Some two days after this conversation, Peter openly dubbed Judas "my friend the octopus"; but Judas awkwardly, and ever with the same malignity, endeavoured to creep away from him into some dark corner, and would sit there morosely glaring with his white, never-closing eye.
Thomas alone took him quite seriously.

He understood nothing of jokes, hypocrisy or lies, nor of the play upon words and thoughts, but investigated everything positively to the very bottom.