Increase of knowledge only discovered to me more clearly what a wretched outcast I was.

I cherished hope, it is true, but it vanished when I beheld my person reflected in water or my shadow in the moonshine, even as that frail image and that inconstant shade.
"I endeavoured to crush these fears and to fortify myself for the trial which in a few months I resolved to undergo; and sometimes I allowed my thoughts, unchecked by reason, to ramble in the fields of Paradise, and dared to fancy amiable and lovely creatures sympathizing with my feelings and cheering my gloom; their angelic countenances breathed smiles of consolation.

But it was all a dream; no Eve soothed my sorrows nor shared my thoughts; I was alone.

I remembered Adam's supplication to his Creator.

But where was mine?
He had abandoned me, and in the bitterness of my heart I cursed him.
"Autumn passed thus.