I wished sometimes to shake off all thought and feeling, but I learned that there was but one means to overcome the sensation of pain, and that was death--a state which I feared yet did not understand.

I admired virtue and good feelings and loved the gentle manners and amiable qualities of my cottagers, but I was shut out from intercourse with them, except through means which I obtained by stealth, when I was unseen and unknown, and which rather increased than satisfied the desire I had of becoming one among my fellows.

The gentle words of Agatha and the animated smiles of the charming Arabian were not for me.

The mild exhortations of the old man and the lively conversation of the loved Felix were not for me.

Miserable, unhappy wretch! "Other lessons were impressed upon me even more deeply.