And it's meant too much to me, to let me go back into the hell I've lived through, this past few months." He wheeled about on the newcomer and addressed him, speaking loudly and rapidly in a voice hoarse with rage: "Hade, I'm through! Get that?
I'm through! You can foreclose on my home here, and you can get me sent to prison for that check I was insane enough to raise when I had no way out of the hole.

But I'm through.

It isn't worth it.

Nothing is worth having to cringe and cheat for.

I'm through cringing to you.
And I'm through cheating the United States Government.