If I drink a bottle of Burgundy I feel myself restored at the middle--right here! I feel the energy back again.

And if I can fall in love--But it's becoming so damned hard--" "What, to fall in love ?" asked Lilly.
"Yes." "Then why not leave off trying! What do you want to poke yourself and prod yourself into love, for ?" "Because I'm DEAD without it.

I'm dead.

I'm dying." "Only because you force yourself.

If you drop working yourself up--" "I shall die.