Not where I am expected to smile and sparkle, on pain of incurring suspicion if I show a sign of oppression.

I cannot do that.

I see myself wearing a false grin--your Tony! No, I do well to go.

This is my resolution; and in consequence,--my beloved! my only truly loved on earth! I do not come to you, to grieve you, as I surely should.

Nor would it soothe me, dearest.