'I can't answer you tonight.

I can't decide so suddenly.' This was disingenuous, and she felt humiliated by her subterfuge.
Anything but a sudden decision was asked of her.

Before leaving Chelsea she had 'foreseen this moment, and had made preparations for the possibility of never returning to Miss Barfoot's house--knowing the nature of the proposal that would be offered to her.

But the practical resolve needed a greater effort than she had imagined.

Above all, she feared an ignominious failure of purpose after her word was given; _that_ would belittle her in Everard's eyes, and so shame her in her own that all hope of happiness in marriage must be at an end.
'You are still doubtful of me, Rhoda ?' He took her hand, and again drew her close.