That one thought excluded all remembrance and all anticipation, in those first hours of delight.
But soon remembrance and anticipation came.

There was the natural want of the person, who alone could take an interest similar in kind, though not in amount, to the mother's.

And sadness grew like a giant in the still watches of the night, when she remembered that there would be no father to guide and strengthen the child, and place him in a favourable position for fighting the hard "Battle of Life." She hoped and believed that no one would know the sin of his parents, and that that struggle might be spared to him.

But a father's powerful care and mighty guidance would never be his; and then, in those hours of spiritual purification, came the wonder and the doubt of how far the real father would be the one to whom, with her desire of heaven for her child, whatever might become of herself, she would wish to entrust him.

Slight speeches, telling of a selfish, worldly nature, unnoticed at the time, came back upon her ear, having a new significance.