Colin, you blame me for not GIVING; yet, all my life, I've been blamed for giving too freely.' 'For giving too freely!' He repeated sharply.
'You mustn't misunderstand me.

I said it hadn't only to do with men making love to me--my ideas about a different life.

It was my general attitude--expecting to meet something great and being disappointed....
Of course, I've suffered--suffered horribly--in my heart--in my pride.
And I've often found that my attitude towards things brought me into difficulties.

The average person, if it's a man--supposes that because one has such ideas one must be a kind of abandoned creature.

And, if it's a woman, that one has some mean, ulterior motive.