Be patient with me....

Now, I'll try and answer your question--truthfully.

I only know in a very confused sort of way WHY I want to marry you....

I think you must understand what a lonely sort of life I've led, really--and what a dreadful muddle I've made of it--Well, I've told you how I hated everything.

And though I can laugh, and be interested, too, in Molly Gaverick's way of looking at things, and in her determination not "to be out of the swim"-- I was just as determined myself, when I had the mood to be in it--and though one side of me hankers after the push and the struggle and the worldliness--yet the other side of me revolts against it, and longs to be washed clean of all the sordid social grime.