'So you have discovered the streak of idealism in Colin.

But'-- she veered off hastily, 'I didn't want to talk about Colin McKeith.

What I want is to hear about your own state of mind.' 'My state of mind! That's chaotic.

The fact is, I feel in a horrible sort of transition state....

It's just as if one were trying to wind a skein backwards--taking up one end and finding a confusion of knots; then, taking up another and after forcing a few of the knots, giving the thing up in despair.