And Baxter Dawes wants locking up, that's what he wants." Paul would have died rather than his mother should get to know of this affair.

He suffered tortures of humiliation and self-consciousness.
There was now a good deal of his life of which necessarily he could not speak to his mother.

He had a life apart from her--his sexual life.

The rest she still kept.

But he felt he had to conceal something from her, and it irked him.