He had no aversion for her.

No, it was the opposite; it was a strong desire battling with a still stronger shyness and virginity.

It seemed as if virginity were a positive force, which fought and won in both of them.

And with her he felt it so hard to overcome; yet he was nearest to her, and with her alone could he deliberately break through.

And he owed himself to her.
Then, if they could get things right, they could marry; but he would not marry unless he could feel strong in the joy of it--never.