It is misery.

Why is it ?" "I don't know," replied Miriam.
"And I don't know," he repeated.

"Don't you think we have been too fierce in our what they call purity?
Don't you think that to be so much afraid and averse is a sort of dirtiness ?" She looked at him with startled dark eyes.
"You recoiled away from anything of the sort, and I took the motion from you, and recoiled also, perhaps worse." There was silence in the room for some time.
"Yes," she said, "it is so." "There is between us," he said, "all these years of intimacy.

I feel naked enough before you.

Do you understand ?" "I think so," she answered.
"And you love me ?" She laughed.
"Don't be bitter," he pleaded.
She looked at him and was sorry for him; his eyes were dark with torture.