For I can not deny it.

I am looking out for an opportunity to repair my clumsy mistake and show myself in a less unfavorable light than I did at that ill-starred visit.
And she is the reason why I haunt his path! Ever since M.Mouillard threatened me with Mademoiselle Berthe Lorinet, the graceful outlines of Mademoiselle Jeanne have haunted me with a persistence to which I have no objection.
It is not because I love her.

It does not go as far as that.

I am leaving her and leaving Paris forever in a few months.

No; the height of my desire is to see her again--in the street, at the theatre, no matter where--to show her by my behavior and, if possible, by my words that I am sorry for the past, and implore her forgiveness.