If she were a boy of course she would go, too! She hadn't the least doubt of that.
She wondered if it was very dreadful of her to feel glad that Walter hadn't got strong as soon as they had wished after the fever.
"I couldn't bear to have Walter go," she wrote.

"I love Jem ever so much but Walter means more to me than anyone in the world and I would die if he had to go.

He seems so changed these days.

He hardly ever talks to me.

I suppose he wants to go, too, and feels badly because he can't.