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Great Expectations

ChapterXXIX
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"I remember I entertained a great objection to your adversary, because I took it ill that he should be brought here to pester me with his company." "He and I are great friends now." "Are you?
I think I recollect though, that you read with his father ?" "Yes." I made the admission with reluctance, for it seemed to have a boyish look, and she already treated me more than enough like a boy.
"Since your change of fortune and prospects, you have changed your companions," said Estella.
"Naturally," said I.
"And necessarily," she added, in a haughty tone; "what was fit company for you once, would be quite unfit company for you now." In my conscience, I doubt very much whether I had any lingering intention left of going to see Joe; but if I had, this observation put it to flight.
"You had no idea of your impending good fortune, in those times ?" said Estella, with a slight wave of her hand, signifying in the fighting times.
"Not the least." The air of completeness and superiority with which she walked at my side, and the air of youthfulness and submission with which I walked at hers, made a contrast that I strongly felt.

It would have rankled in me more than it did, if I had not regarded myself as eliciting it by being so set apart for her and assigned to her.
The garden was too overgrown and rank for walking in with ease, and after we had made the round of it twice or thrice, we came out again into the brewery yard.

I showed her to a nicety where I had seen her walking on the casks, that first old day, and she said, with a cold and careless look in that direction, "Did I ?" I reminded her where she had come out of the house and given me my meat and drink, and she said, "I don't remember." "Not remember that you made me cry ?" said I."No," said she, and shook her head and looked about her.

I verily believe that her not remembering and not minding in the least, made me cry again, inwardly,--and that is the sharpest crying of all.
"You must know," said Estella, condescending to me as a brilliant and beautiful woman might, "that I have no heart,--if that has anything to do with my memory." I got through some jargon to the effect that I took the liberty of doubting that.

That I knew better.


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