You said your reason for wishing to get my promise before starting was that your mind would then be more at rest when you were far away, and so could give itself more completely to knowledge than if you went as my unaccepted lover only, fuming with anxiety as to how I should be when you came back.
I saw how reasonable that was; and solemnly swore myself to you in consequence.

But instead of going to see the world you stay on and on here to see me.' 'And you don't want me to see you ?' 'Yes--no--it is not that.

It is that I have latterly felt frightened at what I am doing when not in your actual presence.

It seems so wicked not to tell my father that I have a lover close at hand, within touch and view of both of us; whereas if you were absent my conduct would not seem quite so treacherous.

The realities would not stare at one so.